I’m lying awake for snoring’s sake.
I had to go to the bathroom, and snuck off down the outside corridor to the communal restroom beyond.
Over-lit, for 12:30 AM.
I came back, stopping to love the night sky — stars, planets, a waning moon in the east.
A dear friend lived very near the spot where I sleep tonight. She has been gone from this world longer than I knew (and loved) her in this life.
That haunts me.
She loved the stars — to watch them, to fall asleep under their watch.
These stars were her stars, but they don’t shine for her (I wish they did!).
She neither loved nor feared neither God nor Christ.
Eternity is a long time to love stars without my friend.
I will forever miss her…especially under the stars.
Photo credit: Tony Hutchings/Getty Images
I cannot wait to close the book on 2013.
Then I am going to pour gasoline on that book.
Then I am going to set that book on fire.
2013 can go to hell which — seemingly — is exactly where it came from. I’d be happy to expedite the journey, thank you very much.
Here’s to a better 2014.
I haven’t been writing much lately for a variety of reasons related to a very rough transition to my new life, such as it is. I’m still reading though, and one of many blogs I really enjoy is A Life Overseas: The Missions Conversation.
Seriously, it’s a cool blog and worth your time — a variety of thoughtful voices on life and work as a missionary overseas.
This morning I found a post that gave me real pause — so much so that I considered breaking my “nothing but original content, no reblogs” rule over on St. Val the Urban Monastic. The post is Are you playing to win, or playing not to lose?, and is on a topic I speak about frequently in context of attempting to explain my position on various political views in conversations with various (generally annoying) individuals trying to recruit me for various causes. My comment when I posted this on Facebook (knowing it could set me up for a cat fight or two) was as follows:
The sad thing is, that there are so many people who have been indoctrinated to this who don’t even know they are — essentially — doing the devil’s bidding. I have a name for them: Haters for Jesus. I know what they are AGAINST, and they often use scripture as an excuse to justify their behavior. Trouble is, I never see or hear about what they are “for” in any way because they never seem to be “for” anything, just really, really, really, really angry…about basically everything.
My point being, don’t let this be you (though I seriously doubt this is applicable to my regular readers, you’re not prone to mindless indoctrination).
Sidebar note: Prayers appreciated for my [new] roommate (who is a long-time friend) — she is very sick, and Ideopathic Intracranial Hypertension, combined with a few other things, is making her life a living hell this week. There are too many doctor appointments and ER trips for this poor young woman.